I just got back from a run…
My normal run…
only…
the ditches I NORMALLY jump over,
had been made (at least) twice as wide
to accommodate some new construction.
Music pumping in my ears,
I see the distance.
And while I KNOW I’m 41,
I still FEEL 21
a DEFIANT 21.
And so I think to myself,
“yeah… I can make that.”
And so I leap.
But I don’t make it.
I land HARD…
feet slipping FAST downhill,
and my hands,
now cut up and INSTANTLY bruised…
start hustling to “right the ship.”
(Picture does NOT do my “injuries” justice…. lol…)
I claw my way up,
and you’ll be pleased to know…
I finished my run.
(And MADE that leap on my way home.
Landed clean…
on both feet.)
There IS a certain part of me,
deep in my core,
that burns adrenaline like high octane gasoline.
That warrior woman.
That stands her ground ALWAYS,
and
NO
MATTER
WHAT
will ALWAYS claw her way back up…
ready for round two.
This part of me is bigger than I sometimes admit.
I AM a competitor.
A fighter.
I could tell you where this fire comes from,
but it doesn’t matter.
It is PART of me.
It has been in my core,
a constant companion,
for a long time.
This push to excel.
This DRIVE to DO more.
This unquenchable THIRST to see and experience and PUSH even the OUTER EDGES of my potential.
This DOGGED determination to UTTERLY and COMPLETELY fulfill my FULL purpose.
And also,
incidentally,
to protect what’s mine. #mommabear
But none of that is the point… unless you ALSO feel like this warrior… this never-say-die and i’m-not-finished-yet woman…. (If so, message me about joining Women Who WOW at m.me/womenwhowow)
MY POINT is that as I was clawing my way up to the top…. up to level ground again…
I couldn’t remember the last time I’d made a leap I WONDERED if I’d really make in business.
I couldn’t remember the last time I’d — proverbially — just LEAPT while simultaneously thinking, “you shouldn’t have done that” AND “girl, you’ve got this.”
I COULDN’T REMEMBER.
AND THIS, FOR ME, IS A PROBLEM.
When did I become the girl who played it SAFE?
When did I SHRINK into THAT role?
#disgusted
Look, I”m easy on myself.
WAY easy.
And I RECOGNiZE all that I HAVE accomplished.
So, I get all of that.
But there’s also,
as my Grandad would say,
a certain “knowing”
that there is SO MUCH MORE.
Not just so much more “out there,”
but SO MUCH MORE for ME.
To DO.
Purpose stuff.
Soul callings.
Business stuff.
Do you feel the same way?
Do you REMEMBER the last time YOU made such a LEAP in your business?
Will you LEAP more and farther with me?
Please let me know I’m not the only one who can be LIT on FIRE from within?
